if you don't got no booty, then you gotta go home.

I've been blogging everyday, it seems like, I don't know why, maybe because I have a lot to say, but no one to listen to me (; Some old lines, I jocked from my old blog

" Cute leads to feelings, feelings lead to screwing, screwing leads to screwed. "- Heartbreakers.

I like that movie, so I was sick for a minute, let's just say I feel better. Words to live by, He's just not that into you, hunny. That's settling for less, I baked to differ. Um, I'm gonna try to not drink so much. Let's get it together.

---- besides me not drinking as much, Thank-God. whewwwww got those moments out of my system.

So I made my first video ever today, yes ghetto, because this is the first attempt of me ever trying to make a damn video. Guess the booty ! lol

do you have the time... to listen to me whine.

-_- i woke up at 5 in the morning, i had a nightmare again. this time it was freddy krueger.
just when he was about to "kill me", my dad woke me up w/ the garage opening. WTF !?

i couldn't sleep after that, i was pretty shook up, went to north town for no apparent reason, & my horoscope says...

Overview

Try not to freak out too much when one of your illusions shatters today -- see it as an opportunity! If nothing else, you have learned that not all that glitters is gold and that's worth something.

i digg... chester french.

i just wanna say something..

don't ever... ever... ever... say you won't ever fuck me over, then...
fuck me over. (:

it's okay. at least have the balls to confront me, kthanks. walking out, is worst than saying goodbye on a post it note.

so i walk the line... alone.

p.s. i can't believe whatshisface went to jail. i remember when me & tiff used to hate him. but i don't wish that upon anyone.

she said do you have the time ...

to listen to me whine, she asked him who's on the other line, you diss me everytime. i tell her baby i'm a star, shit i'm above the stars, i've gotten so high, i forgot who you are.... - lil wayne hot revolver. another rock song from Lil Wayne's new album. Honestly I wasn't too fond of him anymore, but listening to these lyrics... it got to me over & over in the car.
He swagga jocked from Green Day in the beg.

Today had rubber bands put in ... woo-hoo. I'm a step closer. I'm happy, I had a bad dream, but as I woke up more, I'm more happier. I'm thankful actually. I'm grateful for everyone in my life. I haven't lost my sense of humor, thank-god.

I think I'm going to chase the moon, you could never resist an impulse even if it's terrible.
Some guy wrote me...

Any Time Sweet Melissa Keep Shineing Cuz Your Special You Have This Special Glow That Makes The Moon Shine More In By Your Beauty =). F.Y .i How you like that Huh =) Well Sweet Dreams Melissa

My dreams are gonna come true someday, maybe sooner than later. (:

Ohhhh Rox bought me one of my favorite movies. Thank-you big sissy, lol we fight a lot, but my fam is behind me %100 percent. I'm their baby.

I'm going to bed early, and knock out w/ a favorite book, because things will only get better...

she tried to keep em' entertained, when they hardly knew her name...

so lil wayne is bringing out a rock cd now. that's cool. the first song released right now is, prom queen, i'm feeling the bass.



this was taken, after i wore makeup passing out at homie's house, going home the next day.
washed off my face, then putting makeup on again. hella passed out that night. i miss him. but i'm going to let him do him, & i do me.

talk has definitely been cheap. i'm proud of myself though, no more honey. it's a new year, i feel like a change in my luck. [=

i'd be losing, so i just ignore you. but your on my mind, my mind, my mind...

is like a song i replay, every three minutes & every thirty seconds of every day.

i mixed two songs together. last night was talagang crazy (; took care of the sissy, had to rescue sheena downtown. random text msgs. driving in the rain... knocked out as soon as i hit the pillow. i'll have my nook' back. i'm back to reading the secret. it comforts my solitude.

i was reading nee-nee's blog & i did the name thingy. i'm like whoa ! that's so me, dude.

You Are Powerful and Determined

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way! You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are very open. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

& i don't need a hook for this shit, tyga man is just tryna hit.

meet my boyfriend (;








DAMN, tyga man is sexy (: anyways that's my type of guy, tatted & shit. lol Speaking of which ((= Me & someone have plans. I'm going to change my look 09'.
So I woke up & I realized shit again. So never never never again... homie.

"life is not a bitch, life is a beautiful woman.
You only call her a bitch, because she won't let you get at that pussy.
Maybe she felt ya'll didn't share similar interest.
Or maybe you're just an asshole who couldn't sweet talk the princess."
- Aesop Rock.

A good underground band, now picked up by MTV commercials just like my baby tyga :] mwuahah this is such a groupie blog.

say hello to my little friend (;

Edit ; 11: 33 pm.

I totally can't sleep >:[ but I think i'm becoming a bigger fan of Lights, she's so pretty, & I think...
my main song at the moment is her, it's called, it's over Casanova.






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M.A.C HELLO KITTY LINE DEBUTS on Feb. 10th (: I'm super excited, I've been rocking tha kitty since diapers, thank you mama. ( $ 11-$90 )
So I've been watching this movie... Brick, interesting.. I love the dialect, 40's detective lingo.


http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0393109/
i've been having fun being boring & all...
i miss the excitement although. tomorrow grocery shopping w/ pops, he's headed out to philippines in a week and a half. dun dun dun....

i think i want to reception in a tattoo shop.
hrm. to be continued ;)

listen listen... ya'll wanna hear a story...

here it go, sexual, she so. x-rated. with...




tyga makes me laugh. i got my car finally registered, yeahhh baby ! i'm thankful, that i'm being a good girl these days. i've been so boring though. my mama is sick =( , it's making me worried. i love her. she's truely "super head" me & roxy's x-rated family inside joke.

lol she's blonde, i used to be blonde in my " asian days ".

So I have to explain to everyone... I have to be good for 2 more weeks, No... I can't kick it. I've been breaking all the rules, since puberty hit, adolescence faded. I'm going to be good for once.

My daddy in the car this morning, " superman that hoe... that means to cum right? "
" Yeah, dad. " Lol, how akward & blunt is that shit? Weird how we can have random ass conversations like that in the car.


Right when I think I got you figured out... you prove me wrong.
theres nothing more to say except endless thoughts, no one will hear. Another one bites the dust, but then again.

i got a rhyme for those dudes who lie 'bout me & mine.

slum village. anywho
i didn't think it'd come to this...

" live through things and you won't look back
there's one thing i want to say
so i'll be brave
you were what i wanted
i gave what i gave.
i'm not sorry i met you
i'm not sorry it's over
i'm not sorry there's nothing to save"


& that explains it right there. i have shit to do, you made me happy for a lil bit. i miss you, & somehow i'm naive but i believe in you. but like i said i have shit to do. anyway, i've been looking at tattoos. how sexy is this?


i want more tatts (: hopefully next month, me & sheena are going to have a date, girl-day. tattoos&spa. ive been working out, debating if i should go back to mary-kate & ashley size.




yes i was tiny ! w/ long hair don't care [;
sigh, i hope things get better. mmm. laveeta hella cracked me up today.

CH3RiSH this (6:57:36 PM): chick magnet?
CH3RiSH this (6:58:02 PM): for a guy
?
b0otieful x lady (6:58:21 PM): Yea
CH3RiSH this (6:58:33 PM): lol i would just say male hoe :]
b0otieful x lady (6:58:44 PM): Yeah hahaha
b0otieful x lady (6:58:51 PM): More fuck lot wit grls?
CH3RiSH this (6:58:52 PM): sounds better.
b0otieful x lady (6:58:56 PM): Tha right?
CH3RiSH this (6:59:00 PM): yup
CH3RiSH this (6:59:04 PM): hahah, malehoe.
b0otieful x lady (6:59:05 PM): Ha
CH3RiSH this (6:59:15 PM): better than playa
CH3RiSH this (6:59:16 PM): lmao
b0otieful x lady (6:59:17 PM): Hahahahaahaa.
b0otieful x lady (6:59:23 PM): Lmaooooo

just waking up in the morning, gotta thank God, but today seems kinda odd.

Overview

Almost nothing is impossible today -- thanks in part to your deep belief in yourself. Even if you feel humble -- a fine trait -- you still can tell that you haven't come close to reaching your limits yet.

I guess my horoscope came true today :]

meet my baby :] it's cute. i'm content. after all the fussing / worrying, but laws of attraction :D now i have to force my momma to smog/register/insure, it's not brand new-new, but it's good enough for me.
Went to run errands, jason's deli, car<3, trader joes.
Me & Rox decided to give up red meat for lent. My lifestyle change is going well... :]] As Tica would say things happen for a reason, earlier in my head all I could think about was a saying I manage to scrape together...


" without change there is no butterflies, & this too shall pass. "

I'm seriously thankful, sigh. But better things are yet to come, you ain't see nothing yet.

'cause you'll be waiting to exhale while you other hoes be..

" dumb & dumber. yeah you know what i'm saying " - Jazzy Belle.


watched that two nights ago, & it sucked. i'm sorry. lol lot's of explaining, someone died in that movie & we knew that person was going to. " james" from twilight was so hot in that movie.
Cam Gigandet.





I was like don't die "James". Before that watched Bride Wars, funny, chick-flick. It was pretty typical. Some parts were sad. It was one of the movies you watch with your girlfriends. If you have a penis, I don't know man lol. I liked it though.
Went to a babyshower yesterday, met so many beautiful ladies ;] I was jealous lol. My sister's friends. Tatina is such a sweetie ! & she looks so pretty pregnant.


& her friends were gorgeous. Then hung out w/ the guy friend, he vented, & i was just thinking all positive, because fuck you negativity. I counter-acted all the sadness/worry/ what not. I'm content, finally bought my peanut butter cap'n crunch :D Mmmm now I'm going to run, I ate so much this weekend.

we're gonna ride the race cars, we're going to dance in fire...

"la la la ... if what they say is true, you're a boy & i'm a girl, i will never fall in love in you. "

so i cleaned my house, saw nee-neekins, made her these lovely hello kitty waffles, you know my style (;

& in return she dropped off the shotglass ... " drink till he's cute"
mwuahah, she knows my style lol.


So 2009, you already bit me in the ass, oh well lesson learned. Damnit I'm going to be a good girl, I swear. [: I'm going to mass tomorrow, baby shower... & work on my fitness, it's going good. Not as sore, as the day before, but I see progress, roflmao I think Nee sees the skelatar coming back, but I'm going to keep the ass. & I'm not tripping honey. I'm going to feel / look my best this summer, trust. So I'm not complaining.

If only I could find a car, pretty please (: & no more random hookups, that's not me.

Totally stole this quote, I'm sorry.. <333
Don't be reckless with other people's hearts, And don't put up with people that are reckless with yours.

...someone take her picture, so i don't forget her, click click.

So this morning... I decided to take pictures of the body that is forming back again :] Ewww No makeup. But whatever, someone loves this ugly face :)
Woo Hoo, all that running daily except for Sundays. & I must'nt forget tahitian hip hop ( thanks Nee ) .





I miss you V-cut, come back to me baby. Lol. Anyway a lot of drama for your mama today. I'm supposedly a spoiled little bitch, that gets things handed to her.
Everyone was just like ... " you're strong " WTF !?! &*$%& Since when did I even look weak?
Anyway... I would love to go to Santa Cruz, & go here.


Mmmmmh, cereal all day everyday, made your own way :] I saw it on Travel Ch.
I'm determined to find a car this weekend ]: I am just going to be fucking motivated, & go w. the flow. Sigh... I think I wanna stay in this weekend, work-out, read, be boring. Yup.
Toodles.

if that boy don't love you by now, he will never ever, never ever, love you.

webcam whore mode (;






so this past week has been chill, hung out w. nick on my daysoff. shopped a lil, sisterly time, and working out :] speaking of which im losing some lbs :D yay. i just want to get everything in order, before my dad hits philippines, feb coming back march. today bought these cute lil' silicone heart shaped muffin tins @ target.

& then roxanne bought me Pineapple Express :]

Finished up my Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist book. Went to Border's & bought ...





We'll see what happens, but knowing me, I have high hopes... laws of attraction, baby !
& i'd like to cop' me a piece of this, boyfriend, where you at?! jk :]



So instead of writing of about my past, & the piece of shit relationships, assholes, crooks, i've dated, hooked up with i.e. sexually-mentally- etc. I will move forward, & I'm content, The Secret tells me so ! So goodbye, & hello 2009, I'm ready for you. I know you'll take care of me, & see that I get taken care of. Hold me when I get cold, fetch me something to eat when hunger cries. I'll appreciate you, share stupid stories, make you laugh at my dumbass self. Kiss your boo-boo's, shake it like a polaroid picture type shit.
Love Always, Melissa :]

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..but you feel so clean, well she craves affection.

so i use protection, & i know she loves me, she loves everybody.

I don't give a fuck, I still want these items. My look-a-likes, don't satisfy my appetite, speaking of which, I haven't been as hungry. Only for material love.






$94 for the shoes now someother place. I should've gotten it at karmaloop. I didn't deposit on time
:[

But then I found these at Karmaloop, I love Jeffrey Campbell, one of my favorite shoe designers.



I need to get my body how it was last year :] Start modeling again, & get free shit like last year.
Talagang Crazy , Brah. I miss snowcones ;] I love that underground shit, anything Indie / Underground, I eat that shit up :D

Anyways more opportunities to come later.

i hoped the night won't ever end, lord knows i'm weak, won't somebody get me off this reef.

... baby your a big blue whale. grab the reef when all duck divin' fails.

I've been digging that song for awhile now :] Badfish Sublime Tribute show this month on the 31st, I wanna go. !
http://eventful.com/lasvegas/events/badfish-tribute-sublime-/E0-001-016881277-5

new years resolutions

- be able to run a marathon, dec 09'.
- read more literature.
- more concerts
- more water
- quit flaking ;] & tell the truth w. some people
- decrease the use of profanity
- up the use of vocabulary.
- enjoy the moments.
- balance my time with everyone.
- love more.
- hate less.
- instead of i won't..
- more i will's.
- judge less.
- cherish every breathe, kiss, hug, snug.
- after every dissapointment/heartbreak/ wrong
know&feel things happen for a reason.
- learn to swim, fully.
- learn to drive a stickshift.
- love the car I end up with.
- love the place I work at.
- love my family more than I do now.
- love my friends more.
- less fried foods.
- smile so much, when braces get off.
- get the v-cut abs back.
- bask in summertime.
- love valentines day.
- fireworks on the 4th.
- stop being an emokid.
- change my look when braces get off.
- go to a day spa
- have a kick ass 20th.

& then the 2009 horoscopes outlook :] it's cool to look at, but we can ultimately change our own paths ;]
http://astrologyzone.com/forecasts/monthly/leo_full.php
Leo Horoscope for January 2009
By Susan Miller
This month marks a major development in your relationships with the move of Jupiter, the giver of gifts and luck, into your seventh house of commitment. Jupiter has not been in this part of your chart since 1997, so this trend will be quite new and special. It also will be one you will notice, if not immediately, in time. Collaborations of all kinds will become magical for you, so start to think about how you can use this trend. I will give you some ideas, but you can apply this to suit your life in a way that feels most comfortable.

The New Teddie Bears ;]

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