there's two types of people in the world.

" .. the ones that entertain, & then ones that observe, well baby i'm a put on a show kind of girl. don't like the backseat, gotta be first. i'm like the ringleader, i call the shots, i'm like a fire cracker, i make it hot. "


She's back bitch ! lol, 10 years of entertaining, and more than one hit wonders. That's inspiring, I was watching her documentary, no matter how many times she was pushed to the edge, she got up, brushed off her shoulders.






I've been reading this book :D It's sort of a self-help, It made me have a greater outlook, and experience extreme gratitude.

" You've become the solution for you. Don't point to another person & say, " Now you owe me & you need to give me more." Instead, give more to yourself. Take time off to give to yourself, & in a sense to fill yourself up to fullness, to where now you can overflow in giving."



I'm onto bigger & better things. Postive thinking, allowed positve energy in my life. Life is too short to stay mad all the time. [; I should become a therapist on the side, or a talk show host. Lol In my mind I know what I want... I don't know how I'm going to get it, but I know I'll get it. Trust. I love my daily runnings/ workouts/ music "meditation" time.

Anyway :] it was Roxy's birthday on the 4th, & we took webcam pictures :D
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I love my family :D I never realized til' lately I have a big one, I love it. & one more thing :]
I sold my accord, I'm going to miss the many memories in that whip :D 09' Time for Brand New :D I'm excited.

sarcastic mister know it all...

" close your eyes & i'll kiss you.. 'cause with the birds i'll share this lonely view." - Scar Tissue.

I'll always love this song. Anywho, I've been busy doing moi. It feels good, & then.. I had a lil' slip, which I perfer to keep to myself.

It's too late to apologize... it's too late. lol

Yesterday I took webcam pictures, & got free asian food ;] Laws of Attraction lmao. Don't get it.. forget (;


I was diggin' the red lipstick at the moment. Tell me why... this guy is so hot, but young geez catch 22. lol



Taylor Lautner, you're a hottie Mchottie haha. Man he's hotter than Robert Pattinson. I've been doing that whole "mchottie" thing lately lol. Especially when I drove yesterday & I spotted someone driving ;] He knows he's hot, what an asshole.

I'm going to be a busy bee, anywho... to all my haters, kiss my ass. I know what I do, & I'm doing me.

you swallowed my face.. when you kissed me today.

" it was sweet but okay, that's a lil' much. & when we walk down the street, you'll be right underneath me. "

Yesterday was Black Friday Madness. It wasn't as crazy last year, but it was some fun :] I have new dvds & bedding set, which sorta looks like...


leopard print satin pillowcase, & ebony pillowcases. & then the bed sheet is a tan color. I spent a lot of cash :[ & In the back of my head, I was wondering if I should've splurge on one big item... I want these Jeffrey Cambell shoes !!!!!




I'm trying my best to move on from people from my past, but I'll just keep it amicable. It's the ineveitable in my life... to just shut the door, because I know damn well people will knock. They'll be back, it's a given... because all those times they were in the back of my head, I am now in theirs. It's funny how that works. As long as they don't take advantage, or take the best of me. & that's on you... if you let anyone get that close. Boys will be boys ;]

She embraced everyone as an acquaintance,

" but very few people were admitted to her inner circle. She had the ability to keep people at a distance without being in the least bit rough or unkind. Her magnetism was so extraordinary, though, that everyone wanted to be close to her. It was as if she placed a glass barrier between herself and the world. You couldn't get behind it easily. It made her remarkably attractive."

I woke up annoyed, Mari tried to cheer me up today, bought me starbucks, & I bought my last two books from the Twilight Series, damn everyone is now all up on it. How lame lmao.
I'm happy they're both hardcover :D


Anyway, I've been annoyed this whole day & yesterday. How is someone going to bitch at you, and then everything else is double standard. Mari gave me great advice... the only person you can really rely on is yourself. Me, myself, & I. It's been whatever for the moment. I don't know what to think... I wasn't even backedup on my part, like I wasn't shit :[ that is seriously how I felt. That was another lame part, & then I find out other shit. I don't even know how to comment to that either, so that's why I'm keeping quiet for awhile. I hate when someone shows off my weak side, & I hate trying to prove my independency. I needed to vent sigh.


I'm not the only bitch that is making mistakes here, & I'm the cut throat situation. For real? Okay. I realized something here.

I'm on my own... here we go.

baby everyday... i'm living my life..

November 21st, 2008



And so the lion fell in love with the lamb…
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274



What a sick, masochistic lion.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274




I watched Twilight last night at 12, with everybody. MMMm definitely doesn't compare to the book. But Robert Pattinson, plays edward cullen so well. He's a hottie [[= If you didn't read the book, you probably won't get why Edward Cullen is so appealing. It's more detailed :[ I love how he protects Bella in a way that sort of chiveraly isn't around as much. If love wasn't real... then why is there so many movies, songs, etc based on a thing called love. Lol.. me & roxanne had a talk in the car.


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" something like rihanna & t.i. "


Lol sunlight :] I'm pretty much confident, you can tell when someone is confident just by the way they walk, and talk the talk.

I want a puppie so bad :[ but not right now... & then theres other things I want ... but again not right now ;] I am not being bothered anymore, thank goodness. At times it's lonely & other times it's gratitude. I hear life is a struggle, life is a beautiful lie. It doesn't last forever, even if it hurts so good.

P.S.
Don't worry about me, you'll see me there. Talk all you want :]

There was once a girl who knew no love, until a boy broke her heart.

Twilight Frenzy.

" Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.514 "
So I finished the 2nd book, in two days. :] I'm addicted. Thanks alot, to my friends, who said I should read the first book.


Whoo, Eddie's personality is hot. That's why everyone else must be on this frenzy.

I could honestly say... I'm over it, because when I wake up it doesn't bug me anymore. I feel refreshed, other than that, I'm getting it together. Thank God.
Literally.

when you feel your heart is caught in...

" & you see the gray has started, & you see the clouds have finally departed, you'll be right here with me "- Brandy Ft. The Game, Departed.

Randomnly read thru Woman's Health, interesting article.

15 Moments that define a relationship :
- Your first talk til' dawn
- The First Kiss
-When He Introduces you as " my girlfriend "
-The first morning after
-Finding the nerve to say " I love you"
-The First time write "we" in an e-mail to your friends
- The first time you fight&makeup
- The first trip together
-The first time you grocery shop together
-The first time he lets you control his car/remote/ipod
-The moment you see a future with him
-When you notice you no longer primping for him
-Going to the doctor together for the first time
-When you care for something together
-When you commmit-we're talking long term commit-to each other.

I'm totally pmsing. lol, it's funny though.
this weekend was crazy, drunken mess which was not me :] It's funny seing my sister so uptight, do the booty dance.