I just thought you should know.

My weekend was a blur. I saw Kristal, dang girl, haven't seen you in a minute, I wanted to isolate myself although. Someone said I got chubbier. I hate him... haha. Yeah. & they were poking me too, guys are stupid. Whateva, It's my aunt flow talking, yeah she came this weekend, SURPRISE !. She's a bitch, if you haven't heard, but then I bitch when other people bitch, & try to use that as an excuse, I feel their pain though.
I'm therefore a hypocrite, dude bite me. I could careless. Haha. Whew.
Yes, I noticed, I gave too much, it's kinda taking me back. I think I would like my stuff back, but whateva, that's my old shit, I can buy new-new shit. I'm not materalistic, but it's sorta annoying, when people keep my stuff forever, then I get over it. Because I can always get something even better in the future. :]
I cooked Nee food this weekend, healthy food, egg white tuna and salad. I think I should be healthier, like I was last summer. And another thing, more focused. March 4th 2008. We'll see what will happen, wish me luck x[

What?, he too fresh, to show you the best.

" Compliment, you on your intellect, & treat you w/ respect, give you sex til' you sweat, tongue kissing on your neck, it's been awhile since you got it like this I bet, & I could tell your not just anotha bitch I met, Ain't nobody got me open like this, not yet. "

It's crazy it's almost Feb. (= I want to watch Definitely, Maybe. It's out on Valentines Day, I always have the worst Valentines. I haven't been "on track " lately, that's changing, FUCK. I have a goal. The weekend has been pretty chill, lots of visitors, Nee helped me drop off my daddy to the airport, he's gone for a whole month. We cooked, & gabbed. I saw a lot of random faces. Mmmm my mom finally got my insurance, & registered my car, now I have to smog, get my new plates, & find a job, because my car sucks, butt. I want a new one =]]]
I think God is testing me. I've said some things. Struggle builds character. There are times, when I don't love myself. I hyporcite, I judge, lie, take the easy way out. But I pray. Idk.

I know karma is coming to pay me back.

I have a headache. My old computer is pissing me off--- roxanne moved the sony vio in her room, & I put my old one back in my room. Wow, this weekend, was crazy, always went home when the sun was up. Woke up around 2-3ish pm. Hung out w/ the boys again :D I sorta missed it. It's cool, there ain't no akwardness, except the fact, I'd like to punch someone repeatedly. He gets on my nerves. Just because you're jealous, honey, you don't have to take it out on me. Kthnx. Friday, saw Jackie, & Jo-anna, & Jo-rel & them smoked some gay ass hookah =D, saw T.K beforehand, it was funny. Saturday... was crazy, me, chanelle, & jo. were so bored in the beginning, & we ended up doing random stuff. Saw Atonement, I fucking hate it. Well the little girl, in that movie, I'd like to slap her. Then.. we met up w/ some boys that paid $100 for our Korean food xD I feel so bad, that I'm ignoring, someones call on purpose. Sigh. After that, hung out w. T.K. again, and wowwwww hilarious. Ended up going to Robertos, to bag, and have talks, then to that fag face's house. Really didn't want to go there, but I didn't want to kill the mood. After all that mess, we all went home at 8:30 in the morning. =O yeah. Mmmmhmm. Yesterday, Jo bought me sonics at 2 am. Cloverfield I swear. I thought I lost my car/house keys. ROFL.

I'm unusually hard to hold onto..

I know what I want. That's a good thing. Dangerous, yes? But let's kick rocks ;] Go w/ the flow type deal. I want my new car already, I want my new phone already. Mmm. " Good things happen to those who wait." I'm in no hurry, but life is moving by so fast. Been working out, the usual, I'm addicted to Ebay, x] I'm a bright girl, with her head on her shoulders, & the world at her feet.

Many people said I was a heartbreaker, couldn't help but laugh.


"Why is it that you're attracted to the one person that you know isn't good for you?"

I wish I was good, but maybe not good enough for you, as so it seems, on the other hand. My eye-catching isn't doing me justice---- you catching my eye? whateva. So therefore, I'm focusing on myself, I think that was my New Year's Resolution, that & lose lbs.

Roxanne & Marianne are fighting. They need to grow up. My family ain't the " Huxtables. " Never was from the start.

... and he gets the girl.

& I'm addicted to Lupe Fiasco for the min. I want to go to the concert, damn I'll die right now :] Chris Brown / Bow Wow, I loved every minute of it. I saw a couple people, like Jeff, haha. & I saw other faces, weird. But I was like whateva. I slept over Tica's house, man I felt at home. I got weird ass texts from "FAG FACE". I told Jo-anna she got so pissed off at him. It's like he was just using me for BEEEEEEEEEEP, like he's cool as a friend, but other than that, I don't like that kind of shit. So the next morning, Tica's Mommy & her Lexie woke me up. Then we shopped, saw Gemkki, & dude !? Victoria Secret was having a semi-annual sale, that what was up ! I didn't... buy anything really, well one thing.
So the concert, wowwwwwwww I haven't screamed that much in forever. I think I'm infatuated by Bow Wow's Face again, & body. He's hot sauce. Damn. =P haha That Looks so pervy !
So after the concert, lots of traffic, found out some buisness, & I was so pissed. It's like screw you bia bia. Up the ass, home-girl. I woke up w. a headache, I needed a change, So I painted my room, and rearranged it. I love it. I'm in love with my room now. <3






Later that day, " FAG FACE " texted me again, I guess, he got hurt, from what I heard, Now you believe in "karma". I think he feels bad, that... it seemed like he was just using me, but c'mon. Well I don't hold a grudge, so I guess we're okay again, as long as he doesn't ask me for any " favors ". Wtheck, does it even look like I'm that easy. Nigg, please. You can't touch this.
I was distraught yesterday, but I think I'm better off now. I know I lashed out on people ( i.e.- fag-face ) but other than that. It's good. I know this will be a good week, deep down ;]

BOW WOW ! You're hot sauce. <3 Other than that, I'm working out, & I'm on a diet again, I got thick, since... FagFace started being a fag. But now I'm doing me, honey. I don't need yours, because I got mines. I'm happy go lucky ;] I swear.

Come on for the ride, baby take a ride, I just wanna ride with you.

Baby you & I, can have a good time. Tell me what you like Ohh, Ohhh. :] I still like that song x]
I'm looking for somebody I can call boo. Looking for the only one I can give my all to.
Mmm. So I've just been chillin'. Yesterday chilled w. faces from the southside, (Earl&Jeff + Cherelle.) I haven't seen in a minute. Lol I was falling asleep on the couch though ;] [ Someone has to be all boring ] j.k. I made hot chocolate, I was looking all around Jeff's house like it was mine, but yeah I'll tend to do that, to anyone's house shoot. If I want something, I go get what I want.

Supposedly, they're scooping up me & Cherelle again, I'm like yes ! I don't wanna drive, at all. I'm so tired, til' now, I took a shot of Henn, well a couple of shots, it was super freezing, you don't even know. & then I woke up at 6, went to bed at 4, that is not even right Lol.

It's weird, no one texts me in the morning anymore, I definitely perfer texts :D So anywho, in a couple of hours it'll be 2008 ! You don't even know how horriable I had it in the beginning of this year. But this year, by all means.. I know it'll be different. I'm already working on my New Year's Resolution, I kind of sorta, added more to it. I'm officially on a diet again, damn emo nights eating Robertos & cookies, after whatshisface I was like whateva, I think that's the reason why I slept so late back in November, I was still distrought.


Open my heart give it to you, tell the whole world, I'm in love with you, whatever you want, baby I'll do, I know I don't want no one else but you. Baby I promise I will never lie to you :]

Freaking a' I love that song. :]

I don't know what I'll be doing later, everyone's asking me, well sorry loves I got nothing planned.

I'll tell you one thing is for sure. My love/relationships/talking/ infatuation / liking a significant. That was one big eye opener, one right after the other. I learned a lot. I've dated / talked to a lot of people. Eh I'm not really proud, they didn't develop into anything, they were just a lesson learned. As long as I didn't have to change who I was, because if they didn't take the time to see who I was, where I came from, how I am, & still didn't love me in the morning, they weren't worth the time, right? At first feelings were hurt, but I understand now. I don't wanna be a one night stand, I want to make one impact, a significance. I want to be the chick you take home to your mama. Last year, I was all about hooking up, not taking feelings into consideration. This year, I wanted things to work out, but they didn't. & you know what I'm okay.

It's funny how you never think about the women you've had. It's always the ones who get away that you can't forget.

& the person who wrote that, he knows what he's talking about.

Last Christmas, I gave you my heart.

Complicated wreckless of a face underneath your bedsheets, type of a deal. My makeup has been heavy lately, but when I'm at home, I really don't give a shit, in fact I look like shit, I look gay without the makeup, but my close friends, they all see me without it, it ain't a bother. Mmmm I've been lazy besides that. My mind has been perplexed. You ever feel like a piece of the puzzle of your life is missing, I just can't pin-point it out. I usually shop it out, yes materialistic, am I. I'm much more than that, though. I can bargin hunt too, you know. Lol. Skills.

So Christmas was = $$$ in the bank. I never get a " surprise " gift ); It's the usual. The norm.


I just drove around today, w. Jo. We didn't really talk, we just listened to slow jams, & I drove, hella cops were out. Pops gave me money, he even gave Jo a XMAS gift, I was like aww she's part of the FAMBAM, that's wsup. haha jk.

I think I'll dust that chip off my shoulder, I like being chill mode :] No worries, like that damn snapping your fingers song, no not Lil Jon, that " Ohhhhhhhh don't worry, be happy*Jamaican Voice, man. " In my mind theres always gonna be doubts, The past effected me, but it doesn't get to me .... anymore. It's weird how weak I used to be.

On a different note but in a related sorta way, wow heard about the b2k-t.u.g., molestation/rape rumors. Yeah, that's bullshit, how a person can steep so low, just for sex, money, & drugs, like that's all we're really living for in life. Sike, I'm not trying to contradict myself, because seeing I've done bad things... but morally these days, I know what I'm working for towards life, I got a plan. Don't fret. New Year, son. Everything I've done, turning the other cheek. I swear.

I'm not content, I'm not gonna lie, but I am okay. So that's all folks.