you swallowed my face.. when you kissed me today.

" it was sweet but okay, that's a lil' much. & when we walk down the street, you'll be right underneath me. "

Yesterday was Black Friday Madness. It wasn't as crazy last year, but it was some fun :] I have new dvds & bedding set, which sorta looks like...


leopard print satin pillowcase, & ebony pillowcases. & then the bed sheet is a tan color. I spent a lot of cash :[ & In the back of my head, I was wondering if I should've splurge on one big item... I want these Jeffrey Cambell shoes !!!!!




I'm trying my best to move on from people from my past, but I'll just keep it amicable. It's the ineveitable in my life... to just shut the door, because I know damn well people will knock. They'll be back, it's a given... because all those times they were in the back of my head, I am now in theirs. It's funny how that works. As long as they don't take advantage, or take the best of me. & that's on you... if you let anyone get that close. Boys will be boys ;]

She embraced everyone as an acquaintance,

" but very few people were admitted to her inner circle. She had the ability to keep people at a distance without being in the least bit rough or unkind. Her magnetism was so extraordinary, though, that everyone wanted to be close to her. It was as if she placed a glass barrier between herself and the world. You couldn't get behind it easily. It made her remarkably attractive."

I woke up annoyed, Mari tried to cheer me up today, bought me starbucks, & I bought my last two books from the Twilight Series, damn everyone is now all up on it. How lame lmao.
I'm happy they're both hardcover :D


Anyway, I've been annoyed this whole day & yesterday. How is someone going to bitch at you, and then everything else is double standard. Mari gave me great advice... the only person you can really rely on is yourself. Me, myself, & I. It's been whatever for the moment. I don't know what to think... I wasn't even backedup on my part, like I wasn't shit :[ that is seriously how I felt. That was another lame part, & then I find out other shit. I don't even know how to comment to that either, so that's why I'm keeping quiet for awhile. I hate when someone shows off my weak side, & I hate trying to prove my independency. I needed to vent sigh.


I'm not the only bitch that is making mistakes here, & I'm the cut throat situation. For real? Okay. I realized something here.

I'm on my own... here we go.

baby everyday... i'm living my life..

November 21st, 2008



And so the lion fell in love with the lamb…
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274



What a sick, masochistic lion.
Edward Cullen, Twilight, Chapter 13, p.274




I watched Twilight last night at 12, with everybody. MMMm definitely doesn't compare to the book. But Robert Pattinson, plays edward cullen so well. He's a hottie [[= If you didn't read the book, you probably won't get why Edward Cullen is so appealing. It's more detailed :[ I love how he protects Bella in a way that sort of chiveraly isn't around as much. If love wasn't real... then why is there so many movies, songs, etc based on a thing called love. Lol.. me & roxanne had a talk in the car.


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" something like rihanna & t.i. "


Lol sunlight :] I'm pretty much confident, you can tell when someone is confident just by the way they walk, and talk the talk.

I want a puppie so bad :[ but not right now... & then theres other things I want ... but again not right now ;] I am not being bothered anymore, thank goodness. At times it's lonely & other times it's gratitude. I hear life is a struggle, life is a beautiful lie. It doesn't last forever, even if it hurts so good.

P.S.
Don't worry about me, you'll see me there. Talk all you want :]

There was once a girl who knew no love, until a boy broke her heart.

Twilight Frenzy.

" Before you, Bella, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars—points of light and reason… And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn’t see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.Edward Cullen, New Moon, Chapter 23, p.514 "
So I finished the 2nd book, in two days. :] I'm addicted. Thanks alot, to my friends, who said I should read the first book.


Whoo, Eddie's personality is hot. That's why everyone else must be on this frenzy.

I could honestly say... I'm over it, because when I wake up it doesn't bug me anymore. I feel refreshed, other than that, I'm getting it together. Thank God.
Literally.

when you feel your heart is caught in...

" & you see the gray has started, & you see the clouds have finally departed, you'll be right here with me "- Brandy Ft. The Game, Departed.

Randomnly read thru Woman's Health, interesting article.

15 Moments that define a relationship :
- Your first talk til' dawn
- The First Kiss
-When He Introduces you as " my girlfriend "
-The first morning after
-Finding the nerve to say " I love you"
-The First time write "we" in an e-mail to your friends
- The first time you fight&makeup
- The first trip together
-The first time you grocery shop together
-The first time he lets you control his car/remote/ipod
-The moment you see a future with him
-When you notice you no longer primping for him
-Going to the doctor together for the first time
-When you care for something together
-When you commmit-we're talking long term commit-to each other.

I'm totally pmsing. lol, it's funny though.
this weekend was crazy, drunken mess which was not me :] It's funny seing my sister so uptight, do the booty dance.

your guilty pleasure is me..

" Its so much fun, you shun therapy. Although it never be, the feeling is fleeting. Shopping's like coppin', you constantly need it. I'm never around, you constantly seek it "


Hello Mr. President.



& of course I am one of the many that voted ... voted for him. Let's hope with all this recession & bankruptcy we see progression over the years. On another note....

I woke up & smelled the coffee, I had a rude awakening. I'm going to move along. You weren't all that was cracked up to be buddy =[

P.S. I am now obsessed with these makeup tutorials on youtube :D
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOsnxSLfSMQ
& I now want....




& yes, I cracked down... & bought black glossy leggings... at Target (:

sigh, I'm going to get my life together - together, I know what to do. No more distractions. It was fun for the moment, but seriously I'm going to buckle down.


I'm not in love.... this is not my heart. I'm not going to waste this words, about a..
boy (;

temptations making me doing the wrong thing.

"& I wanna do right...... but something keeps pulling me back, me back. "
Avant Ft. Mario- Right Back.



Halloween was fun (: I was a good girl, haha, Goddess :] Partied for a minute. Fairly buzzed, it was a good night. Lately I've been drinking like a sailor, I'm trying to be sober. I need a break ... & I've been motivated to do right. No more flings ); seriously. I'm such a walking contradiction.


say hello to my new baby though, HP TouchSmart :] baby do you wanna touch, baby do you wanna touch, yeah. yeah. It amuses me for the moment.

It got old missing him. Moving forward... & when I think about it, I don't really want to date at the moment, I'm just chill. Everyones so serious. Go with the flow. I tried promiscuity, & lust didn't get me anymore, it just made me feel more numb. It ain't no thang. & when you're all about sex like that, you aren't that cute, sweetheart. Where are all the chill people, that won't bite my head off ? serious talk gives me a headache, maybe because I don't want to settle with you.

Lastly ! Me, Nee & the girls are going to take a lil vay-cay :D I'm excited, Spa Trip. Yee Haw type shit. But it's cool. I need a break.