crackberry, literally.

So I have the new Blackberry 3520 all white, trackpad instead of the ball. Truthfully that whole ball thing was the only thing stopping me getting a blackberry, ever. I never had one in my life, nor an iphone. Let me tell you.... this shit is addicting. haha (: The only downfall, no flash on the camera on the phone, & when I'm on the phone I can't hear when I receive text messages. Other than that... it's true love. (;

rest in peace baby monster.

My cookie monster passed away two days ago :[ It still saddens me. She's in a much better place. She's been sick for weeks before she passed, but I was too ignorant / busy to really see that. Nick tells me, that I couldn't have prevented it, or it was neither my ignorance. Things happen for a reason, for better or worse. I will always have good memories with her. She was my baby mon mon, my cookie monster, baby monster. I will always love that lil' one. Like everyone else, she brought a smile to my face. Poor little thing, you're no longer in pain, probably running free up above. I hope Tiff is watching over her. <3

it's like an old flame that never dies out.

I had tumblr, cheated on blogspot for awhile. But I came back, because I wanted to really blog, unlike tumblr, it's all pictures, & one sentence that says more than an in depth thought. I still drown myself in caffeine, indulge in wine, and smoke hookah. Since I left blogspot, a lot of things happened, I met people, went places, & did things. I was starting to fall for someone but as fate stepped in, like an old girlfriend... no punt intended, it was unexpected.

I will always care for him, I realized, I haven't stopped. It was real for a minute. I met people through work, I'll always remember them. This summer was probably one of the best summers of my life, I definitely grew up. I'm still growing... I went back to school, got promoted on my job, had a car accident. That day was certainly not the brightest, but I had him.

One thing I learned about him, was to keep an open mind. He always protected me, & never broke my heart. There will always be something in the pit of my stomache.