if that boy don't love you by now, he will never ever, never ever, love you.

webcam whore mode (;






so this past week has been chill, hung out w. nick on my daysoff. shopped a lil, sisterly time, and working out :] speaking of which im losing some lbs :D yay. i just want to get everything in order, before my dad hits philippines, feb coming back march. today bought these cute lil' silicone heart shaped muffin tins @ target.

& then roxanne bought me Pineapple Express :]

Finished up my Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist book. Went to Border's & bought ...





We'll see what happens, but knowing me, I have high hopes... laws of attraction, baby !
& i'd like to cop' me a piece of this, boyfriend, where you at?! jk :]



So instead of writing of about my past, & the piece of shit relationships, assholes, crooks, i've dated, hooked up with i.e. sexually-mentally- etc. I will move forward, & I'm content, The Secret tells me so ! So goodbye, & hello 2009, I'm ready for you. I know you'll take care of me, & see that I get taken care of. Hold me when I get cold, fetch me something to eat when hunger cries. I'll appreciate you, share stupid stories, make you laugh at my dumbass self. Kiss your boo-boo's, shake it like a polaroid picture type shit.
Love Always, Melissa :]

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..but you feel so clean, well she craves affection.

so i use protection, & i know she loves me, she loves everybody.

I don't give a fuck, I still want these items. My look-a-likes, don't satisfy my appetite, speaking of which, I haven't been as hungry. Only for material love.






$94 for the shoes now someother place. I should've gotten it at karmaloop. I didn't deposit on time
:[

But then I found these at Karmaloop, I love Jeffrey Campbell, one of my favorite shoe designers.



I need to get my body how it was last year :] Start modeling again, & get free shit like last year.
Talagang Crazy , Brah. I miss snowcones ;] I love that underground shit, anything Indie / Underground, I eat that shit up :D

Anyways more opportunities to come later.

i hoped the night won't ever end, lord knows i'm weak, won't somebody get me off this reef.

... baby your a big blue whale. grab the reef when all duck divin' fails.

I've been digging that song for awhile now :] Badfish Sublime Tribute show this month on the 31st, I wanna go. !
http://eventful.com/lasvegas/events/badfish-tribute-sublime-/E0-001-016881277-5

new years resolutions

- be able to run a marathon, dec 09'.
- read more literature.
- more concerts
- more water
- quit flaking ;] & tell the truth w. some people
- decrease the use of profanity
- up the use of vocabulary.
- enjoy the moments.
- balance my time with everyone.
- love more.
- hate less.
- instead of i won't..
- more i will's.
- judge less.
- cherish every breathe, kiss, hug, snug.
- after every dissapointment/heartbreak/ wrong
know&feel things happen for a reason.
- learn to swim, fully.
- learn to drive a stickshift.
- love the car I end up with.
- love the place I work at.
- love my family more than I do now.
- love my friends more.
- less fried foods.
- smile so much, when braces get off.
- get the v-cut abs back.
- bask in summertime.
- love valentines day.
- fireworks on the 4th.
- stop being an emokid.
- change my look when braces get off.
- go to a day spa
- have a kick ass 20th.

& then the 2009 horoscopes outlook :] it's cool to look at, but we can ultimately change our own paths ;]
http://astrologyzone.com/forecasts/monthly/leo_full.php
Leo Horoscope for January 2009
By Susan Miller
This month marks a major development in your relationships with the move of Jupiter, the giver of gifts and luck, into your seventh house of commitment. Jupiter has not been in this part of your chart since 1997, so this trend will be quite new and special. It also will be one you will notice, if not immediately, in time. Collaborations of all kinds will become magical for you, so start to think about how you can use this trend. I will give you some ideas, but you can apply this to suit your life in a way that feels most comfortable.

The New Teddie Bears ;]

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close your eyes & i'll kiss you.. 'cause.

(= last night i baked, just to bake. hung out w. the girls & their boyfriends. christine bought me a red journal like doug style. definitely going to write in that piece. it's new years eve, & i'm not babysiting, i have no idea what i'm going to do... but all bets are off, baby.


2008 was a lot on my plate. but i am growing up... everyones moving in, getting engaged, having babies. i matured in a lot of ways. i know what i want :] i just want to be with someone who could surround me in a happy vibe, & not ask too much of me.
laws of attraction will never fail you. i have a good feeling about this.
if you were driving, i'd be riding shotgun ;] haha.
i call dibbs !
christal's baby is coming.. 09'. sally's coming back... i hit the big 2-0.
we'll see what else happens. i hope everyone & anyone feel the fireworks tonight, as corny as it may sound.... goodluck!
& i still want....

...wrap me up & breathe me.

Yesterday, I went mad shopping, a little peek of what I bought, aw you should see my metal studded flat jeffrey cambell look-alike shoes I bought at Charlotte, $18 :] Went to Townsquare, bumped into, faces I keep running into. Lol if i stop talking shit? will they ever leave me alone. Lately though I've been bumping into alot of faces. I've been so noncholant. I wonder if they take that as... me being rude, haha sorry !
After all that went bowling at Sam's Town ... & the highest I scored was an 88. How sad, lol I don't bowl anymore.
Tomorrow is New Year's Eve, definitely not going to have a kiss, I have to babysit. But hello 2009, goodbye 2008. A lot of of mishaps, lost's, lessons learned, growth, friendships, food, "cherry popping". I will never forget my babylove tica. I will never forget to keep moving forward, and live tha good life. I'm thankful, I can only hope & pray that this new year will bring more hits than misses.

i don't give a fuck if you feel me, i'm gonna follow my heart.

I watched The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button with Jo-weezy, last night at 10:45, the showing beforehand was all -full. It was a good movie (: It makes you think, Love story - time piece. Lol we had to run away from stalkers at Townsquare, and weird drunk guys. Very freezing. Went home around 2 am ! The Coffee Bean was not the buisness ;]
Earlier today, I went to church & was going to look at this civic, but it must've been sign, because by the time we tried to look, it was already sold :[ It was soooo cute.
After that hung out w. nick, & chilled. Had a "cribs tour", watched movies, went to his shop. Fun, randomness.
Then went home, & had to be a dr. phil to one of my guy friends .. it was all good.

& I cashed my check from holidays, goodness gracias good weekend :]
& I didn't spend <3 I'm saving for something big, you'll see.

your love is my relief.

I was watching cluess this morning, & I was imdbing',
Wow, Stacey Dash is 42 ! She looks as great as she did in Mo' Money.
Clueless

Now



I realized my family parties are awesome !






Played pool with jolly, & roxanne, YES ! I'm getting good :D Hung out at my cousin Mye's house. It's beautiful. Danced with all of the cousins & aunties. I'm totally motivated... Watch out now.
I got tons of $$$, & cute items, I love having a big fam-bam.