So instead I’ma finish my drink ...

and have another, while you think about how you used to be my lover.

I haven't updated in Blogspot in a minute, because I like Tumblr. Yes, I have a tumblr... had one since, Feb.

Here's new with me since I left ya
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Got a new puppers, & I drink more wine than hard alcohol now.
Actually I barely drink hard now-days. I'm always a home-boddy or in a chill type of mood. Kick off your shoes & relax your feet type of mood. I miss my old days off though, let me tell you. I miss bumming it at a certain slut's house & eating peanut butter sandwiches & my tummy grumbling. I was too tired to go home, so I slept in your bed, & you always took care of me. I liked that... that's hard to find with the exception of you loving drugs than you can love me. Anyway ... I also got another tattoo.


Other than that... all I care about is the $$$, & God of course, way before that. A bad girl gone good. This summer was not as bad as the rest of my adolecent summers. Thank God for that, one.

gin & juice.

I can't sleep...
& I'm mad D-Rose & the bulls aren't playing in the series anymore.



I've been busy, I want a new whip, I'll get a new whip. If I really want something I'll get it. Yay, I got me a new ipod, it's pink (:

& aw I got my Can't Hardly Wait DVD, still waiting for my Empire Records in the mail, also got these pictures from my crazy rapper friend, & my cousin anne sent me a pic of leilani & a card. I love getting shit in the mail, thank-you, thank-you <3 style="font-weight: bold;">tumblr & twitter still ((: It's addicting.
Everyone's trying to hook me up w/ their friend, cousin, brother, etc.
But I'm content, I'll always be. I just have been having a sleeping problem lately. Fuck that. lol. Back to work, sell ... sell... sell. Flirt, smile, flirt. Same old.
2 more months til =D mucho excited.
I have a lot of stuff planned for the months of May-August, wish me luck. xoxo.
July will be the month of all months, turning 20 in August, yay. (:

Everything has been sweet none the less. <33

back in the day when i was kid, i'm not a kid anymore, sometimes...

i wish i was a kid again.

so yesterday was fun & random, loved every minute of it. thank GOD ! i'm alive.
woke up early to meet up with Carlos so he could do my tattoo (:


that's the only upclose picture i have for now.
4 hours of pain & sometimes tickling (;
afterward byn-bby hit me up... we decided to kick it finally after many many months.
she picked me up when i went home. ate some cereal, still hungry... jolliebees, haven't been there in a minute either. two-piece chicken w/ rice & a bottled water.
met up w/ her cali boys at circus circus, awww i felt like a big family (:
fun times in the car (; then went to the northside to a kickback... more cali guys.
it was weird, a vegas house, & all cali dudes. i had a nice time, now i want to go to cali :]
everythings been chill, i've been down for whatever... got my mind right, money tight. lol
i can't wait for christal's babyshower, & when sheena gets her car, &... summer. bring it, baby.

coachella !!!!!!!!!!!.

I can not attend this year, I know for sure. Next year I will find someone down with me to camp for 3 days, & pay $200-300 something, DAMNIT *$&$^*(@&(*&@&#@*(40^.

Made a date with Divinity, but she wouldn't let me fuck.

Hola ! Aloha ! :]

Went to my 2nd interview, & I think I did snazzy. Almost got stuck in the parking lot, bought some white nail polish. Finally purchased this movie...



" It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all, nothing. It hurts so much. When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story. I really love this one. When I think that its over, that I'll never see him again like this... well yes, I'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost. Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around. Forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one, until that one is gone as well. There's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses. "

So I would like to hit the gym this week. I should...
I'm exhausted, & I think the blast from the past was trying to hit. Nostalgia, then came over me. I'm just dandy although. Many new faces then hit...
I've been saying hit a lot lol (;
& the funny thing is, you always want this one person to hit you up, but they don't. Other people in their place do but you move on. & one day, just a normal day, their ugly face reappears.

"love without second guesses only second chances"
"to be trusted is a far greater compliment than to be loved."

No wonder why people run to me like I'm Dr. Phil, I've always grew up in unhealthy relationships. (; Everyone today in my house was like.. yadaa yadaaa.. POINT BLANK!
It's easy as A-B-C, but you make it more complicated than usual.
& that's not real.

i'm so hard for a rich girl, my heels are high, & i don't know how to love...

this weekend was unbelievable productive, & managed to stay busy.
that's what's up :]
purchased items, i've been wanting to score! :] i think i'm finally getting empire records.
- cute voodoo string dolls, american apparel items, m.a.c. eyeshadow case.
- two lame kickbacks, with lame perverted males. some youngin's. i'm sorry i'm going to be 21 next year, i don't think so. smoked hookah, because i couldn't drink, needed to get lightheaded.
- made cutesy hair bows, hot topic or other stores would charge like 2-8 bucks for. LAME ! Going to make more & more. <33 All shapes & sizes.



Easter was off the hook (; Marianne's in laws, had a talk w/ mikey in the car (:
Food & cute deserts.


- Saturday, Anthony randomnly hit me up, asked me to watch I Love You, Man w/ him at SunCoast, I was like Thank-God ! I don't have to drive... I was deadbeat on Friday w/ the girls.
Hilarious, the dude from Hot Rod was in it, Paul Rudd, & the guy from Forgetting Sarah Marshall.

Last but not least, I think I have a job now :]]]]] $$$$$$$$$$$.
& also, Jesus has risen, & lent is over. Who would like to drink?! ;]

so I've been sleeping with this silence in my mind...

All I've been doing is working out, staying in, watching movies, & job-hunting.
I miss blogging on a daily, I used to blog on my myspace.
Hopefully ! I get the front desk position at the hospital, because... I prefer not to work in retail, but a jobs' a job. I'm obsessed with cellphone string charms. I currently want the voodoo string dolls. (: